PHOENIX RISING
I suddenly woke up at 5:00AM with this picture in my head. [Of course, I put the reminder to make a post in my phone and went back to sleep ;-)] This is how I feel about my running right now. I’m not into mythology, but this bird is a symbol of being renewed.
Yesterday was an interesting day for me..to say the very least.
First, I was talking to my Dad via chat and find out that GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) runs in my family. Wow does this explain a lot about me..LOL. Him and my grandma regulate it with medication. He sent me the following link to read up on the symptoms (http://www.webmd.com/anxiety-panic/guide/generalized-anxiety-disorder). OMGosh! I have so many of them. I just realized that I’m freaking out, and do everything possible to stop it. After hearing this I thought..great I got another acronym..LOL 
So far I’ve got OA, RA, ADHD, and now GAD. Could this soon become a new song. If I have GAD and have gone through everything over this past year..HOLY CRAP it is ONLY by the grace of God I’m still SANE!
Second, I decided to join this new small group at church called “Money Study”. Its a way to learn in depth about God’s will when it comes to our own spending and His principles when it comes to money. I already tithe, but this show you how to budget and manage money as well. Anyway, it was the first night and we had to introduce ourselves, share a tad about our financial situation, and what we expect to get out of the class. I got out..my name is Darla Banaga and……..I lost it!!! OMGosh! I hated it! After holding my breath and staring at the ceiling for about a minute to get myself to stop the tears from falling.. I spit out that I lost my husband a year ago Sept 18th and that I was there to learn to save money for my son and I to get a place of our own. This was so unusual for me and proved I had a lot of stuff pent up that is going on that I haven’t let out!
Third, and best!
At about 11:00pm, I checked my Sweat365 blog and found 2 very inspiring comments. One reminding me of the awesome time I had training for the Nike+ 10K (my first official race) and the total HIGH I had after fininshing! 
And the other reminding me that I have ‘virtual’ friends too. Even though I was supposed to meet up with her at the Nike+ 10k and the Long Beach Half, but I will be seeing you at the San Diego Rock-n-Roll 2009 Marathon 
As said in my last post I HAVE and will continue to ‘TRIUMPH in the face of adversity’
1 comment:
I like the phoenix rising picture, it symbolize hope and passion. Good to keep in mind when you get worried. GAD is a common condition, although, I don’t know if you really have it as a condition or is it just the current state of pressure, ie money, job, your son’s well being all on the line that is what your experiencing and how can you not get worried? But it is understanding the root of the worry and expect it, then you can find a way to deal with it and fix it. Of course, it is easier said then done. To find a place such as your church and have a group of people to confide in who support you is so important and I am glad you got a chance to do that. It’s not easy to show your vulerability in front of people, but I’ll bet you feel relieved after.
Keep up the positive spirit !